Seize
Brian Komei Dempster
Winner of the Julie Suk Award in Poetry
Gold Award in Poetry from Northern California Publishers & Authors
Silver Winner of a Human Relations Indie Book Award
Finalist for the Eric Hoffer Book Award in Poetry
Finalist for the Sheila Margaret Motton Book Prize
Finalist for the National Indie Excellence Award in Poetry
Reviewed in Southern Humanities Review
Reviewed in Mānoa
Featured twice by RHINO: in a graphic review and an editorial review
Seize, Brian Komei Dempster’s follow-up to Topaz, spares no one the highs and lows of fatherhood. The speaker struggles to care for his young and ailing child—a child whose many medical problems create an obstacle course of moral and emotional dilemmas. How does a father come to terms with the large and unknowable mysteries of a child who cannot communicate in a “normative” way? How does a parent—especially one who is dependent on language—guide a child without the use of speech? And how does one become the parent of another when their own uncertainties, their own wounds—intergenerationally from war, from strained race relations, from constantly being denied a place to belong—are still healing?
Bird Cries
I miss exits, veer
through the world
dangerous. Drive
with earplugs, strain my neck
to check if my little boy
is all right. At home I wear headphones
to block out
his squawks. In my own
bird cage. Shut up I yell when he breaks
through. Squeeze his cheeks
hard. Hold him by the shoulders. Be quiet. A flock
of seizures. His fingers claw
into my wrist. He says so
little. I can’t shut him
out. His good arm flaps. Shadows swoop
down on him. I keep him
from falling, keep him
from flying. Some sounds are torture
my dad says. If my boy is quiet, his friends
will like him. When he screams, neighbors could think
I’m hitting him. I strain
to hear the radio, cry
when I drive
to work. A blackbird can be seen
thirteen ways. I fly to retreats to write
about him. When I come
back, he is still caged. I shampoo
his hazel hair, and he soothes me
with coos Ay ai . . . Nice voice buddy
I tell him. He nests quiet
in his wheelchair. Poor little guy
my mother reminds, so much to say
and no words. His mind a deep sky
she believes
he will rise into.
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